Smile

When I'm not smiling, people automatically assume I must be unhappy. I really don't know why.

Is it because my smile is so large? Is my face easier to read than I think it is?
I'm beginning to believe what people are telling me about how I feel.

It's hard being objective when you live in a bubble.

Words of Wisdom

Do not do something during the day that would keep you up at night.

Do not do anything during the night that would stop you from holding your head high during the day.

It's about morals and temptation. It sounds a whole lot better in Punjabi. 

Phone Calls

Do you ever feel like phone calls have become irrelevant?

It seems like people would rather text than talk with you. I miss the sound of voices saying hello and asking, "How are you?"

Sometimes when you do manage to get someone on the phone their conversations seem so vapid and rushed, as if they're using their texting personas put to voice.

Perhaps it is my own fault, I always get straight to the point when I need something. This year I'm making it a point to get back to the niceties. 

Skeptical

I shall remain politely bemused, as I realize these people rarely tell the truth.

Tolerance

Today tolerance isn't about acceptance. It's a state of politically correct neutrality which offends no one and defends no one. Fence-sitting pussies have taken the lead.

You can only discuss dissenting politics in hushed circles. God forbid any mention of religion is made anywhere. Seems like atheism is the only polite way to go. Forget discussing anything.

If you can publicly politicize into vulgarity, I think talking about religion is A-OK.

who the hell am I

who the hell am I kidding? I appreciate those construction workers too ;)

2010 Movies To Watch

Just a list of movies I'm interested in watching this year. Still entertaining if on drugs.

Robin Hood

Princess Kaiulani

The Last Airbender

The Prince of Persia

Date Night

The Back Up Plan

Toy Story 3

Shutter Island

Alice In Wonderland

Diary of a Wimpy Kid

Repo Men

How To Train Your Dragon

Hot Tub Time Machine

Clash Of The Titans

Death At A Funeral

Kick-Ass

Shrek Forever After

The Karate Kid

http://www.themovieinsider.com/movie-releases/january/2010/

Everyone's Kinky

I had a midnight thought.

People have this construct known as God because they want structure, security and predictability in their lives. They want behavior to reliably result in a reward or punishment. They want to be controlled, typically as puppets of their fate, pre-destiny or whatever 'has been written.'

The idea of a vengeful God, or Hell, is the penultimate realization of this masochistic urge. There's a thrill in the threat, and of course that knee-wobbling fear its imagery instills.

Need to stop wanting. All

Need to stop wanting.

All this pain is trapped in an illusion of need.

Be free and be happy.

Blah.

Having majored in Biopsychology does not give me the expertise to diagnose and remedy anyone's mental health issues.

Never notice that I always scrub twice.

Truth is I'll never be clean.

But that doesn't stop me from trying.

I've got hope.

Rant

Everyone is in control of his or her own life. Yeah, sometimes there are circumstances and obligations you have to consider, but you CONSIDER them, they don't control you.

I hate people who think that everyone or everything is against them.

Bitch. Everyone and everything is ALWAYS against EVERYONE. Life screws everyone over, you aren't anything special. Learn to deal with it and get over it. It builds character. Stop complaining and try to contribute to the solution, not the problem!

God damn it.

Can you tell I know someone like this?

Being a bitch doesn't fix anything.

When did people start tolerating bull shit? That's the only reason people get away with acting like this. People became 'too nice' to correct others. Losers.

March Madness

Today was an eventful day.

I cut out a hamper's netting and glued it to a picture frame to create an earring hanger. I've been dying to be craftsy.

Went on a trip to Costco with my sister who is home for Spring Break. I ended up spending 2 hours in the optometry department. I got a new contact prescription. One eye actually got better and the other stayed the same. I have astigmatisms in both eyes, although both are minor!

My optometrist, a very interesting fellow, he had plenty of jokes. He asked an Indian girl about arranged marriages, and she told him, "I don't know why people always ask about that. My sister married a Mexican fellow 10 years ago and they've already started talking to her." Apparently he dropped out of UCSD and spent 6 years trying to get back on track and into Opt school.

Also told me to look up Minnesota Cryptosporidium. Maybe it was Milwaukee. Not sure. But sewers in the area flooded and contaminated drinking water leading to a mystery sickness in the local populace.

This should be reminding you of the movie The Crazies.

I bought flowers for my cousin, her birthday was earlier this month. Which reminds me that I forgot about my twin cousins' birthday! :(

Gah, we met her at the mall handed over the flowers and headed to the Mac Store. I wanted to buy a video output device to my macbook so I could set up my TV as a display. I asked the "Genius Bar" what I needed, because I honestly didn't know how to go about it. The jerk behind the desk gave me both female outputs without any info. He said, "Yep, that's all you need." The douche bag could have at least told me I need another video cable to connect that adapter from my macbook to the TV. I had to figure it out on my own. Honestly, if you don't know something just say so! I even showed the bastard pictures of where I needed it to go in, and brought in my macbook. Stupid mofos.

Anyways, I came home eyes still dilated. I imagine anyone who saw me thought I was on drugs. Or possessed. I wanted to go on a walk, I got 2 houses down before my mom popped her head out and asked where I was going. I didn't have the energy to argue with her so I convinced her to come walking with me as far as the swings at the park. There were a bunch of kids already there so we doubled back across the soccer field. I had a very nice conversation with her about life. She's worried about rape, I'm worried about spirituality... like two peas in a pod.

I'm glad I organized the house at the end of last fall. I enjoy knowing where to go to find what I need. Like video cables, in the hall closet underneath the boxes with vacuum accessories, loads of cables and wires in there :D

Free Advice

Bad advice is always free.
But if it's on youtube and it has 4-5 stars, it's usually pretty good.

So, I took some of youtube's advice and it worked. OMFG, it actually worked.

It was this preacher dude talking about how guys and girls are different.

You can get a chick to do stuff by embarrassing her... and as a chick, of course I know that.

But guys... Guys suck. They react to your insults by getting mad and NOT changing. So what you have to do is give them positive reinforcement. Exactly like a dog. Don't get mad, request, repeat, repeat, ask again and smile. And when they do it right give them a treat! "You're such a good boy! Here's a cookie!"

It's that fucking easy!

How do I know?

I've been asking my brother to crack my back since last year. He hasn't done it in 5 months 'cause of an argument. So instead of my usual, 'haven't grown a pair yet?' comment, I told him about how awesome a brother he was, and kept asking till he gave in.

My back feels so good.

Oh yeah.

Blossom attack

The wind blew and I got attacked by a shower of petals. it felt like a sailor moon moment.

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V-blog

I created a new youtube account: PWNjaban.
How has no one ever thought of that before? PWNjabi? haha. Well, it's mine now. Prepare for an onslaught of badly performed v-blogs, world.

Rainy Day

We had almost a week of lovely 70 degrees days, now the rain has returned.

The trees have begun to bear their soft blossoms.

The flower I asked my mom to plant in 2005 is starting to bloom.

Today, the house is uncharacteristically quiet. All I can hear is the laundry tumbling in the drier.

I think it's the perfect time for a nap.

Hand Print

Yesterday, I biked over to my uncle's house to help my little cousin paint her room.

It took the whole day, but we were messing around a little bit and slapping paint on each other. I spent the whole day with a white hand print on my boob. I met my aunt and uncle, and the whole of my family with the offending marked breast. I also biked 2 miles down a busy public street with it.

But no one said a word.

If I had known I could get away with such an obviously awkward situation by not pointing it out, I would totally do it more often.

Hell yes.

Izit Rant

Guru Nanak Dev Ji was born a Hindu... but he married a Muslim woman and went on to have two kids. His kids did not inherit his guruship because they weren't spiritually inspired enough.

Isn't that amazing? He crossed all boundaries that constricted and oppressed society. He shunned that which he was born into, even though it was a respected caste. He crossed religious lines even though it was frowned upon. He rejected his own sons even though everything was inherited from parents.

He turned the world upside down.

But he did it with reason! He shot down traditions that were pointless. He declared us the makers of our own lives.

That is why he is the founder of Sikhism and we should follow in his footsteps. We are bound by no rules but those that make us good, better human beings.

Cat Face

What's amusing me for the moment:

http://www.weebls-stuff.com/catface/Cat+Face+1/

There's a whole series! It's some cat with a giant floating head. AND he speaks with a french accent. Haha.

Epiphany

My whole adult life I have felt like no one understands what I've been through... but yesterday I found out one of those family secrets I wish I had never known.

I don't know who else knows.

Now I realize it's me that doesn't understand.

Disappointment

Yesterday, I picked up my first homework from Genetics.

I can deal with failure better than I can deal with near perfection.

I missed 2 points from a full score.

I am not happy.

Surprise

Yesterday, Biji told me that my older cousin got a 'rishta' in India and is getting married.

All I could think was if she'd be a little less uptight after she got laid.

Bwahaha.

Things shall never be the same.

But then she went and posted everything on Facebook.

So... maybe not.

The Underdog

The mutt is getting smarter. She figured out what I mean when I waggle my finger it means 'come here.'

She's learning.

One day...

One dog to rule us all.

God

Movies like American History X and Fight Club cement Edward Norton's status as a god in my eyes.

Shallow

Events in my life do not feel validated unless there is a facebook album to commemorate the experience.

Wanderings of the Wide World: Lathrop

Upon my many travels in this great country known as the Central Valley, I have wandered upon many a memorable place.

To the north of my humble village, just south of the metropolis of Stockton, is a a trade city in the heart of the cow lands.

This tiny principality is home to vast fortifications stuffed to the brim with delectable munchies for the everyman. Amidst the ramifications of the ominous buildings there is one fort that stands apart, bejeweled with the labors of its denizens...

It is hailed as Ghiradelli.

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Do you understand the implications of this? THERE IS A GHIRADELLI CHOCLATES OUTLET AND ICE CREAM SHOP 20 minutes away from Modesto. OMG WTF FTW!

iPad

Haha.

Apple came out with a response to Amazon's Kindle. It's called the iPad.

You know... as in MaxiPad.

http://ow.ly/1nHAZn

Jodi

I had a long day yesterday. Pulled an all nighter for a midterm. Bad idea when you have to drive an hour and half in the rain. I napped on the back seat of my car and I slept like a log. Sometimes I wonder what people think when they see me... because every time I wake up there's a car missing. Or do they not notice?

Dad left for India Sunday so I had to mind Jodi. I didn't check up on her until I got back from class yesterday. She tackled me, her natural response to no attention for a day. My reply was to sit on her and grab her ears. We played fetch for a long while. I use two balls, as soon as she brings back one I throw the next one. But when the brat gets tired she'll 'lose' one ball and just trot after the other.

"Judge" Preet Harpal

"Papa Kendha Judge Ban na."

"Papa says become a judge."

My favorite song of the moment.

Reminds me of my life, to some extent.

Blue Tooth Capable

Daddy got me a pink lexus!

Excited? Yes, I am!

This thing is fantastic.

This is just my car newbiness coming through, but it's got bluetooth in the damn steering wheel! And a moon roof. It's got a 6-disc CD changer, an automatic shade for the back window, heaters in the front seats... and it's PINK!

The engine is super smart too, it actually compensates for my weak turns! It'll turn extra when I'm pulling out or into a parking spot. Fukn elite.

Yeah baby.

Break up

Damn I just broke up with my bf.
Betrayal hurts.
All I asked for was the truth.
Nigga can't give me that much, but at least he went without a fight.
Fuck.
Heart broken.
Totally puts all the "I don't deserve you moments," into perspective.

Fuck It.
:D

Wilderness

My idea of a vicious, fanged beast:
Raccoon.

Question:
How far would I get in the wilderness?

Answer:
I'd be fucking screwed.

Note to self:
Don't go camping alone.

Poetry: Ode to Ankle Biters

Twinkle, twinkle little brat
I always know where you're at.
Everytime you make a sound,
I wish you were gagged and bound.

Be A Hero: Recycle!

I might be small but I am mighty!
I recycle!
Or the beaners digging through my trash do.
Save space and compact your bottles.
Remove the bottle cap and twist ends in opposite ways to crush.
Add a beastly or nonchalant expression for immediate respect.

Backseat Ponderings: Smelly Love

Does love boil down to loving how someone smells?
Listening to 'The Title' by Ciara.
Ugh. Pheromones.

WoW: Sock Mates

there are soul mates
in socks
they might all be manufactured at the same plant
but only that one pair goes through all the same things
and suffers together, and stretches together
and gets worn down into nothing
and one of those old socks, won't match with a new one
that's a soulmate
and maybe she's your sock pair
idk
but u never know till u walk together for a bit

Sobbing Squirrels

I started at UC Davis this Monday. It boils down to the same shit different place. The squirrels are huge. I saw one running up a tree with a giant green apple in its maw. I wonder if the stories of them throwing twigs at people are true.

I feel as if me and Mr. Shields have gotten intimate, because I've had two naps in the library. I found window seats and actually studied. I blew $1700 on books and tuition. Gas and the parking tickets are going to add up over the next few months. The commute is long and boring, and the days are short and cloudy.

I don't like most of the songs on my ipod.

I also realized how good I had it at UCSB. Davis doesn't have shit on it. The vibe is casual, beach-goer... at Davis it's awkward and nerdy. I fit in perfectly, but I'm used to being the odd one out. I feel alienated.

I've been watching Ghost Whisperer from season 3 on... Jim died and I've spent the last 2 hours bawling over him. I am so heartbroken.

I had to undecorate the Christmas tree. It's bare branches were stiff and prickly. Rest in peace, green one.

Day 2

I flossed my teeth yesterday. I feel accomplished.

Har left today. She finally brought me the de-frizzer I asked for a week ago. And then she asked if I could hook her up with a dub. Bitch.

I discovered The Kominas today. They're a Punjabi Punk band! The Gods of MSN had preordained it. Too bad they're Pakistani Punjabis. I've twittered them and Facebook'ed them. Their rendition of 'Choli de pichey' is definitely different. Skip the bull shit and start at 1:00 minute:




I exchanged Dad's and Ranjit's blazers today, and still didn't get Dad's size right. Bought a bunch of earrings and a necklace with my Kohl's Cash though. I finally got those red heels from MJM. I'm delighted.

Dad let me know that he can sense my frustration and if I needed to talk to him he was there for it. And that he missed our conversations. So I talked to him about the subject of my Saidpur blog on MiC (shameless plug). I asked him about the reason for shabads, he told me a little about raags. Now I've got the topic for my next MiC blog post. I hope that comes out tonight. 'Till then I'm stalking stalkers on the interwebz with the Cookie Monster.

2010 is here!

New day, new year. How often can you say that, my friend?

Only once a year!

So here are my resolutions for this coming year:

1) Get yoga-tastic.
2) Floss everyday.
3) Get in to medical school.
4) Keep up with my MiC blog.
5) Make a short post about my life at least once a week, via this Mobile blog. So be prepared for spam!